Positive/Negative

Recently I have really begun to notice how negative people are, I listen to my friends and work collegues and then endless self loathing and misery is quite remarkable and it makes me really sad

It got me thinking, are we all really that unhappy or are we just naturally more comfortable moaning?
We do it so much that we dont even realise we are doing it.

I then started to analyse my own behaviour to assess whether I am a positive person or a negative person. And I dont just mean in the things we all say to each other but also the narration that goes on in our heads all day
I was astonished to find I am actually no different to everyone else, and I am more of a negative person than I reslised!

Take today for example, the serious of minor but annoying events that have contributed to my negative thoughts today

1. Didnt sleep very well due to the noise of the snow plow right outside my window! he had been plowing from 2am-6am - very annoying

2. I consider going to work, I check the emails on my Blackberry and find yet another work collegue has sent a stroppy email to me so I call in sick, they can get lost if they think I'm going to spend my day dealing with rude people, I am not superwoman!

3. The Maintenance people come around to finally fix the wall where I had the leaking drainpipe, but yet again they 'assess' the work instead of actually doing it, i wait in all day for them to come back but they are a no show! brilliant thanks for nothing (again)

4. There is a problem with my water bill, they say my payment is late, I say they never sent it to me in the first place, Im on the phone for an hour then they said they would call back (that was 6 hours ago!)

5. My dad starts posting very hideous childhood pictures of me on Facebook for all my friends to see! i spent the afternoon changing all my privacy settings so as to reduce the amount of people who could see me looking like a geek - thanks Dad!

6. I paid extra for 2 day delivery on Amazon, yes you guessed it, my purchases are no-where to be seen even though they promised it would be delivered today!

So an average day but when I sit down and analyse it this is such a frustrating life
I want to be a positive person and I consider myself to have good fortune, so how can I become more positive and not get dragged down by these minor but annoying frustrations that a part of daily life?

I passed!!!

I have finally passed my full graduate diploma, not only did I pass I got a credit so I did better than a pass!
4 years of hard work has finally paid off, I am so excited I feel like I want to be sick

I just cant wait for the graduation ceremony now

Vegas, Exams and other stuff

Oh my god, what a day
I am so hyper I am literally bouncing off the walls today. I am waiting for some really important exam results this week, the result means I either graduate this year or if I fail I will have to re-take and graduate next year!! I am so on edge its crazy
I have been checking the online exam page all last night and all of today only to find out the results arent out until Wednesday

So now I'm trying to occupy my brain with other things. I am off to Vegas next week on a girls holiday, holy f**K i am sooooo excited, so I started packing for that, I am trying to find all my best going out clothes as I plan to party hard

so I also cleared up my wardrobe tonight, I realised that I clearly never iron my clothes so I pulled everything out that wasnt ironed (about 90% of my clothes) and I am slowly working my way through that

the Paul Mckenna system is not so good today, I have hardly eaten all day, Ive just had half a bar of chocolate for my dinner which isnt healthy but I'm so wired tonight I really dont care, I will redeem myself tomorrow at spinning class

I am missing my friends and family a bit tonight, they all live in the UK and my mum was cooking a lovely roast dinner tonight for my friends and I wished I could be there, but it was my choice to move to DC so I suppose I have to live with the ups and downs of my decision

I dont want to ramble on too much tonight so I'm off to tackle that pile of ironing
:)